Boring but not a depression post

I was showering earlier and somehow, I remember the same time last year - I was hit with a depression. A very deep one. It was the month that my brand manager left, back to Germany and it felt that a huge burden task and responsibility fell on my shoulder. I was alone at home and looking at the ceiling, in questioning why things happened the way it happened? And the same time two years ago, I probably was asking myself why did I sign up for a job that seem so fragile back then?

Today the me, right now lying on my bed and blogging, I really do not know what I will be doing one year from now. Probably looking for a new job but will that come true? I envision myself to at least try and own a business but that said, I have to say - I am not even sure I can take those risk. Gone were the days where things were a bit more naive and straightforward. It has definitely got to do with ageing, going into work and owning commitments where you have to pay the bank for the next few decades.

So if you really ask me why am I always wondering in the past, I have to admit - I am clueless.

But one things for sure, I am happy that depression is not the first thing on my mind now. I am now tuning my mind and also energy to brace the next 6 months, as I feel - work will top and hopefully not topple.

Some weekend learnings

The weekend ended. It's the first weekend that I spend in JB entirely unplanned, at home and pretty much just recovering from the hectic workdays. I did not entertain any of my friends invitation to go out, I know it is a bit rude to turn friends down but the alone time was crucially needed. Like how one would said, it was well spent. The weekend.

I found a few revelation these two days by just being home bound. That I am really a lazy bummer in the day, especially before 12. I salute people who can just wake up from bed, early wee and start their day fresh! Double salute to those who even make it out to the nearby park for a morning jog. It was definitely months ago when something like this happened. I woke up early and set my day forth with plus points for productivity.   I am not even sure was it the sleeping position, pillow perhaps helped? Or was it the diet the night before, or temperature or Aircond setting? Or was it just luck that night it was a good sleep altogether? 

I also realize how monotonous, boring and routine my life can get. I hardly look out the box these days. I buy the same brand of milk, cereal and even groceries to certain extend. A variety wouldnt kill for sure, but lately life has been pretty much too hectic for a comfort change, or even addition. I looked at the unfinished books gsthering dust, the boxes of LEGO stacking up, the house still in a mess and have yet to receive any facelift or improvement in furnituring! Not to mentioned the studio lighting sitting for months and Project KC which has been also sitting for weeks now. ZERO progrssion i tell you! tsk tsk so dissapointing. For months I have tried shedding a different life but bad habits are indeed hard to kick.

Talking bout kicking habits. I am officially cutting my sugar in take as well as controlling my diet due to my fitness challenger. Don't go too far an idea wth that. It is a personal one, with no string attached except for personal expectation! As many of you may know, my percentage of body fat is ... Sad. With the record of 15% , I am trying to trim it to around 13% in the next month or two without making myself look thin. Means,'I have double job - to lose my fats and to put on some muscles. Not bulking but trying to at least get a nicer more meaty body. So I begin my low carb diet, healthy fat intakes, frequening the gym and running, cutting out the sugary drinks, and not to mention me reducing the intake of oily and iced consumables... Then to top it up w my in-take on Mass Tech, I  hope I can really achieve some

Improvement in my body. Hopefully by Aug...

Ok time to also sleep. This is gotta be the latest. 40 min passed 12am. I bed now before 12 or lucky by 1130pm. So this is the other new habit I hope to instill. Sleeping early. Although sometimes I ended up hungry zzz ...

 

June gone! oMG

I am back in JB. As I lie here in my bed  wondering what had happened for the past few weeks, I came to a conclusion that the older ones' life gets - the faster time passed by. I am very certain that many of you readers will find similar note either on My Facebook status or even in my past posts. Anyway, can you believe it?!?! It's almost half the year had passed!!

The past few weeks had been crazy for me. Extensive travel and extremely busy with work had most of my time occupied. This June, with only 3 weeks passed had nothing but hectic lifestyle. I feel like a celebrity really! With the back and forth travel to KL, doubling as a good son and friends, to doubling up as a good manager and new project leader at work, to having to spend equal quality time with friends, best friends who wants to connect... And not to mentioned the body breaking down demanding for rest and peace of mind. 

Then the weather was turning crazy. The rain, the heat and the combination of both, altering temperament of environment was one way of frustration. As the thick haze creeping from Indonesia continues to polute its neighboring countries, I can feel the shortbreath and side effects that it could to both to business and health. The add ons were bonus, the sleepwalking, the jaydreaming, the little ghost stories, the OMGs jaw dropping exposures and the rest were history. I, at this juncture is impressed by how faith and fate had intertwined all the happenings to just appear in less than a month.

June is definitely a busy month. Both for my body and head... Please let the reamining days be peaceful but I doubt it...

Man of Steel - Superman

I am still wondering why they named the movie man of steel... Was it because that the word Superman is a bit cheesy? Overused? Or fear that the movie reception will not be good? 

Title and names aside, the overall movie was not too bad. The story progression and background was a very brave thing to do. In most movie these days especially it revolves around a superhero, we either often get bluffed by the director totally amending the story or it would be too draggy, or long winded. Think of Ang Lee's Incredible Hulk. I have to say, it was painful. 

Man in steel does a very good background check on Supermans origin, his search for humanity and hope as well as finding fit in earth gives the audience a good reality check how the superhero become who he is today. Genius to have scenes and sequences roll between Kal, Clark Kent and Young Clark Kent. But who will expect less of Christopher Nolan's work right? CN was not the director but a producer who probably influenced  the story flow

Althought I think Amy Adams did a great job in acting, I somehow felt she is not the Lois Lane of my expectation. The image of Teri Hatcher acting as Ms Lane in the Superman TV series didn't quite help me to ease into Amy's role. I felt she was a bit too short, a bit too shy, doesn't quite look like someone Superman would fall in love with and the hair is way just too ... Em ... Not Lois. Not doing it for me. 

The sound effects of the movie was the big winner for me. The music and how sound was used throughout to build suspense and drama - purely thumbs up for me. The scene where Johnathan Kent, played by Kevin Costner who was swept away by the tornado refusing his son to reveal his gifted talent was touching. I had tears circling. It was very emotional to see the sacrifice one will and can make to protect. It was in the eyes. I tell you, these actors are good with their eyes.

The clever part of having a "lex corp" oil tanker blow up during the fight between superman and zod was like a teaser to introduce lex luthor perhaps in a sequel? 

And with the ending of having him put on the infamous black frame glasses was a huge turn on. Good way to end the movie.

I wouldn't say it was like the best superhero comic adaptation movie I watched for the year, since ironman 3 was a strong contender but I highly recommend this movie. After all, how bad can the movie be with the main actor who is a hunky handsome charming lad in modern tight fitting fighting suit w his famous cape? Lol

Writer's Block

First things first. Forgive me if I am going to have some minor spelling mistakes or grammatical errors. I  had my best friend visiting yesterday night, called Insomnia and had been up for hours in a workshop earlier monday, squeezing any worthy left of juice from the brain and happened to now just sit in bed, with the laptop and had this urge to blog.

I think I will begin with having the writer's block.

To be honest with you all, I do not think I was ever a good writer to begin with. It was done in the past purely to seek attention from my friends, since back then most university friends kept in touch through viral means. It was blog post for stories, before the existent of whatsapp surface and definitely for someone who doesn't own a facebook account - was a blessing to begin with. I used the blog primarily to keep writing, to keep the brain freeze away and *with a striking roman warrior pose* to enhance my communication writing abilities.

So after the rambling on the top. I hardly write these days. With the confessions of such news, it is only gentleman to admit fault that I have been pretty much lazy and procrastinated on practices that I once deemed as a a fun fit duty. Admirable as I may be to some, I felt that behind close doors in my cozy apartment, I slouch and suck at completing the daily commitment to-do list

Thus here I am - even with only one eye opened since the other is asleep, I pushed myself a little more to get a post up. It may be shorter than my usuals posts, but it is a good start for the month. Or was it mid month already?

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Milestones Recap

Anyone realise it is June already? And counting down 30 days - it will be half the year had gone by. I was just wondering had anyone actually achieved or completed their new year resolution? I remembered I am not a big fan of resolutions, and this year particularly I did set some milestones for the sake of having some mini accomplishment. To be honest, I kinda forgot them already.

Back in those days when I was in KL, every year is like a challenging year. From starting up a company, run it, earning back the capital investment, then letting it generate passive income, to owning a property, completing my masters degree and launching my career in a corporate world, this year is really like a set back for me. Some had asked me to take it a challenge to rest the mind, soul and body since the past 5 years had just flew by with all the work, stress and routine picked up to achieve my yearly milestones.

The past months, I admit I was really taking a breeze walk at the park. I self diagnosed it as recovery treatment for post syndrome in launcing one of Malaysia's most important landmark for tourism. But when the time flew by, and occasionally when I have time to sit and think - damn I been quite the lazy prick. If an assessment is done on my "milestone targets" (not that I formally set one!), I would probably score a voluntarily separation scheme.

Back to making 2013 a more productive learning year for myself, I set some personal goals which I absolutely think it is a piece of cake to achieve compared to the latter years. Just 5 things.

1. To bring my Japanese language communication skills to the next level. Status : Kinda in progress
2. To learn and master a new social dance. Status : Kinda all over the place with this progress
3. To save, live thrifty and diverse investment for future savings. Status : Kinda in progress
4. To really build my body and regain tone-fit healthy figure. Status : Seem to be in progress for years!
5. To be more environmental friendly and savvy. Status : Definitely. I think?!!?

So with vague and many kinda in progress status - I probably should shoot myself in the foot because if I ever look back 7 months later in december. I am sure most of the status is the same.

Here goes the pessimistic rocket launching to space!

Perhaps if I consider getting attached a milestone, I might had already achieve that?

Feeling Poetic

It's the 21st just passed seventeen,

My sweet tooth munching kept me awake,

While I am perked, lazing and keen,

A few hours more we will be celebrating.

Amazing reminisce counting months ahead,

State of self in  surprised and ever impressed,

Through times I vow we shall dictate,

The ups, the downs, the life, till the dead

Together we roar and balance in find,

Pray the day we both tie in kind,

Thou life juggles and so we have to brave,

Through thick and thin the road we shall pave.

It is the greatest gift in all I say,

For you I am rich in the poetic way,

Like the lyrics listen come what may,

Wish you were here through night and day.